Thursday, 27 March 2014

Cooking for The One


i am not a good cook
sometimes what i cook just not as what i planned or imagine too
and this was one of it

the name, strange one
1 potato
1 carrot
1 onion
1 egg
1/2 glass water or milk or yogurt or coconut
salt and pepper enough to taste

first i put cut carrot potato and onion in enough water and let it boiled until tender
seperately mix egg and milk
slow down the water until the bubbling stop
put the egg mixture and stirred until mix equally

p/s might add anything you like tomatoes, mustard, soy sauce up to you

weird right? well never mind!

Monday, 24 March 2014



You can skip this, this is my intro ^_^
Actually it's been a long time since I last wished good luck to someone who will be taking SPM/PMR/UPSR results, maybe since I was the youngest grandchildren in the family, I don't know how it felt to wish the best for someone. I don't know what make me realize about this, just after around 5 turns of SPM cycles now I realized SPM is an important.
I pray good luck and the best for those younger generation ahead me :) SPM is the beginning of the reality. The reality is huge. I couldn't describe it, it's more than happiness, sadness, experience and all other mixed feeling that I could ever describe. It's not as bad as you think but at the same time it's not as good as you think. It's a mixture ( i bet you be reminded of your chemistry). However, it's a colourful mixture way than you can imagine, here you will learn to see everything in your own point of view. You are no longer a child or youngster who only limited to school activities and people around you. It's more and who know insya Allah it might as well reach to the whole world.
So, after SPM, you will be faced many interviews all around and it's not only for the SPM leavers also for those who will have to face tons (over exaggerated) or maybe few of interviews. So, actually I am a timid person and I don't like interviews. Shiroyo! (for those who know Korean, not sure if it correct or not).  However, once in a while you just have to break through that barrier. So, I'm going to write some tips ( i hope to write at least 100++ but I know it's impossible) but I hope I can up-to-date from time to time and for whoever wants to give opinion, I will accept them with a smile :) Just comment below.

1-be prepared! ok, it's cliche of course you have to be prepared to everything even in SPM you have to prepare right? So don't take for granted for any interview offers. It might just come once in your lifetime and who know that's your destiny.

2-prepare on your speech, social speech or everything. For someone like me, I rarely talk but I know in an interview, a conversation is an important part and that's what determine whether they will impress by you or not. Most of the interview will be held in English or might as well in Malaysian but be prepared in English. When I was 18 years old I know my English was not that good and it's more to local tone. Just brush up a lil bit. You can search on youtube, English British or English American. Try the best as you can to speak like them. Don't mad at me because even in Jordan, the people here they don't speak English with their Arabic tone, most of them will speak with American tone. Since English is their origin, might as well we respect them and use the language like the way they are. Read articles aloud. I would recommend Suhaibwebb because most of the articles in English and apart from brushing up your English you will be able to gain knowledge :) Insya Allah

3-mentally calm please. don't panic~ why would you be panic? would you like to equalize that panic meeting your crush ( a long time already i don't have that feeling haha, my standards increase proportionally to the age?) with that interview?? unless you meet your crush there. be calm , recites anything, to me i like to istighfar since I think I am not a good person and i think that what make me panic what if they can see me as not an competent/qualify person. you know since you have you black days too.

4-don't emotionally thinking it all time around. so you have prepared for it, allocate time for it. don't spend the whole gap before you interview. don't overdo it. sometime, just let what come come ( what kind of English is this??) maybe around 1-2 hour a day? or none at all :p

5-be honest. most people like me will prepared their own speech or text before going in. but actually speaking naturally, about what's your opinion at that time with honesty. don't use difficult words or bombastics words to impress, they won't. and usually they will ask about somwthing unrelated or unexpected ( i mean can you ever expect correctly what will they ask) and for example i was asked about my name, what my name mean, why, what etc. why would they dissect my my name??? I don't research about my name and at last I have to answer simply y=just what I think at that time and I think that's what help me ^-^

6-ask those with experience. you know that idiom, makan garam. it is true we have to ask those who had faced these interviews before since they know how it will look like and so they can advice you with something within our ability. during my time i ask my mother father or even stranger how to act in an interview. though i dont think i applied to everything but listening to them giving you advice a lil bit help you to expect during the real interview.

7-nothing else could work without asking for His permission. It's important to pray to  Allah SWT to help you because no matter how perfect you were, if you don't rely with Allah, you won't be able to pass it calmly. You know, it's different feeling when you are doing it while relying to Allah and opposite where the former would make you feel calmer and when the result is out and you're not listed you can accept the fate where later would left you devastated. There's one time where I don't prepare much for my exam because I know I would pass it anyway unfortunately I was just one mark behind to failed (which I barely passed) and I realized that I was arrogant at that time I don't even seek to Him since I don't know why I was 100% sure that I would pass around 60-70% which was wrong. From that moment, I always try to always remember Him in everything I do, without Him, I think I'm weak. Well, we are, but relying with Allah make me stronger.

8-be yourselves. don't try to act like someone else. just be yourselves in the interview. try to find what's your unique/special abilities that could attract the attention of the interviewers on you. like if you are multilingual, used this to show to them that you are capable of speaking multilingualism. For example like France, German, don't lie if you don't, find the other ability, I'm sure each one of us have their own abilities. ask your parent or someone near you if you hardly know any because usually these kind of people is humble he he.

9-have confidence! peeps, i know, i'm not someone who has very high esteem, in fact, i hate showing that i have self esteem unless i need too. like during my interview seriously i force myself be positive, don't show you were scared and try to voice out your opinion with confidence. and later after the interview, i just back being me who is very scare of anything. haha. that's why i wrote myself as someone who has multi personality change according to surrounding :P

10-give the best of you and pass it out! i always thought that just overdo everything that's only once in a lifetime. whether you get embarrassed or humiliated just face it since it's not like it will effect you in anyway (sure I am writing right now with that feeling at the moment that sometime i just shouted with my face on the pillow so that the voice wouldn't be obvious that much) besides, whenever we have something embarrassing happen we do something to relieve it right? like when something like that happen to me i just go for a walk alone, go to the mall, buying weird things and sometime I just don't study, i take my time off because it's hard. or watch something funny which is I will watch Korean talk show Hello Counselor, seriously it lifted some of the burden.

Insya Allah I will write more :)


I think my ability to write lengthy post getting bad and that's making my ability to speak or create my own opinion getting worse, though I thought that I getting better, at least for now but I couldn't deny that I feel lacking. Sometime, I thought to myself whether I have Dementia or not. I know that's too extreme even the youngest age that I know to get this is around 40. So let's pray that I still have the ability to think properly is still there hang in there don't go away I need you!
So,  I think one of the way to avoid that is by writing and by writing is anything whether you write your own story, your own opinion, or you are imagining thing. so I thought of making story. And actually I wish I could shout to people that I can speak out loud more in writing than using my voice. Using voice is difficult to me. However, I know there are people who wish they could speak.
I think there are things that we thought it might be something that normal to them but to some people they are not. They have to work hard for it. And I know how that feel, but I am grateful for being able to realize it now. You know, I have things that I want and it's been 5 months. I have been doing everything that I can to have that, but do you know what make it come? Doa. People thought that there are things you don not have to wish for and still they can have it. However, I really have to put an effort for that. And actually what's delay it, actually it an just came but somehow Allah wanted me to pray to Him. I remember the events around that time, I woke up suddenly twice in the midnight. I performed prayer. And I asked Him for that, and amazingly I have it. Alhamdulillahirabbilalamin. I think what people said that do Tahajjud surely you will find the difference. Seriously, the first time I did it I feel quite calm and the next time I did it again I'm calmer and alhamdulillah I got what I want. So imagine for other people who do it regularly? It must be amazing.
That's why I thing that prayer or doa should be your strength. Sometime things come in unexpected ways.
I have to be consistent in writing this actually. I like writing actually.
Insya Allah I will make it an effort ( i wonder this is how many times i said the exact things over and over again)
Well, take care peeps!

Wednesday, 5 February 2014

Time Heals Things

That moment when you just suddenly question everything in your life, or your past choice. Wondering whether you were actually made the right choice or not... When there are sometime when you wish if you had made another choice, which wouldbring less burden on you and your family.

however, alhamdulillah I had get over it. Actually I wrote a draft when I tried to rewrite it, I feel nothing is coming out from my mind. I can accept this fate already. Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah.

Saturday, 4 January 2014


Have tou ever had that feeling where you just feel that you had enough of people in your life? You do not feel like adding or knowing new people intentionally unless it was emergency or coincidence? I feel like that. I feel like I have enough friends to know and I do not not think I should pursue to know someone new. It just not thing that I would be happy to know. I know it's wrong. Maybe it is just because we are in foreign country where language act as a barrier? I wonder if i were in Malaysia, things would still be the same, or I might actually knowing new people but the language seems to stop me from doing it. However, it would be irrelevant because could not speak with the language of them does not mean you can not trying to be friend with them, like I just watch Pocahontas yesterday and hoe the native Indian Pocahontas could interact with John Smith which is British guy without any difficulty, they speak with language of their heart. Or maybe because I try so hard to understand them that sometimes I jist feel exhausted. I know I should be given up and on top of all of this, I know what I am doing is wrong but it seems like I do not want to step out of the position I am now. I do not want to become someone who does not give up, I mean being someone who given up is better? I do not want to be talkative because I do not like that, I do not want to be someone who wants to know about other people , because I do not think it is approriate to get know people too deep.
So, actually I have my own reason why I do not want to be like someone who is better to be. However, I consider all of these UNLESS it happens so sudden that I could not think all about this.
So in conclusion, let coincidence be the one that decide everything. I read that coincidences are the God's way of doing so I guess I leave it to You, Ya Allah. I will accept and I will do the best as I can and that moment. But until that time, I couldn't do anything.

Thursday, 2 January 2014


Today is the first January of 2014 so may all your year in goodness or in Arabic kullu 3am wa entum bi kheir insya Allah.
So definitely I have to write about the Disney's film Frozen. I rarely watch films but when I did, I surely like it a lot and definitely love it so much.
Frozen has a lot of messages in this film. Attention! Spoilers ahead!
Family. I knew it when they said that only true love with heal her I knew it that it would be the bond between the sisters and not from the man. Sometimes, family is more important than someone who has no own any ties especially someone you just know. However the family is someone you have been and always will be someone who know you and nothing can ever break them
Bad traits. Sometime, the bad traits were not bad actually. It's us human that classify things to good and bad. Seriously, I never thought that having a magic, sometimes, something that you don't even ask for we called it a gift. There maybe reasons for us to have anything just look it from the bright side.
Let It Go. Sometimes, things are better to let it go. We just couldn't hide our real self from people, why do we have to hide. To prevent people talking about you, they just will speak about you whoever you are. So might as well you be someone who you want to be. Whether it is something they will be shock or not, you want to be comfortable to yourself.
P.S what i write is just my opinion, it is not definite. Anything is subjective which mean each of us can have our own opinions and we do not have to choose answer that already provided. It may change according to time according to your experience, and the way you see it, from what perspective you see it.
I want to sing Let it go by Idina Menzel bit my voice is not that great, it is out of tone always haha

Wednesday, 1 January 2014

Am Jadid

Assalamualaikum, Bismillahirahmanirrahim
For a start of new year, maybe i should write a post on the eve tonight.
Today, it seems like I faced something that reminiscing me of my past. It was deja vu. Seeing what i had through in other side of people, different people, I mean way different, it was like I was someone distant and they were too, but a same thing were happen to us.
They way they look, the way they said, they way they did, it was the same of what had happen to me.
I do not know who were worse or better. Furthermore, these kind of things were not something that can be measured. 
However, i can assure you, sometimes, problem solved without even we solve it. Why? I is because we need each other, and we cannot just ignore someone in our life. It made our heart break right? Maybe they do not even need us but we need them and maybe it just Allah that help to soften our hearts to just continue to accept them.
Im sure, yes, im sure time will heal everything. Sometimes, we just forget about the bads that happen to us. And then you questioned yourself, why the heck that i did that thing? However, think aback, if that thing were not to happen, things might happen differently.
The song by Idina menzel titled Let It Go suits for us.mfor everyone. Because it was about us.
P.S im sure myself would not remember why I wrote this when I read it back. Do not worry.